UNPREDICTABLE

Someone tell me “still loving” , how could him?
He throw me like a junk and pull me out.
Again , again and again .
Do you know, how I survive until now?
Loving you, I cant breathe, you always push me, hurt me and you don’t want to know what I feel, what kind I taste, what I makes.
The ego and emotion be a king in your self, destroyed the happiness.

When I can stop cry, turn on the light, open the window
I see the real you, not ure shadow like ussualy
How dare you?

There something wrong, there something right.

You open the memory, don’t want to stop to tell the old story
Give me one picture, I just silent

Hold my hand and always says.
Push me to tell about the new one, are you jealous?
Always Ask me, you have many question to know about the new one
You says, he is perfect for me, are you sure?

Honestly, I glad to see you cry and down on my knees.

By the way , I don’t know about the new one, want to stop because many things make me fear.
His spending the time to work, I proud but that’s so busy.
And most important why I want to stop, his not care with me.

Should I give up?

please, make me sure.

(my ex, my brother and my best friend)